WTF?!

Things with R ended v. badly, which I don't like, esp the fact that it had to do with S, so today when I started college I was a tad apprehensive about seeing R, but not overtly so.
When all that went on with S he told me he was moving to Wales, and all was grand and R detested him greatly.
So I turn up at college expecting the usual first day occurrences plus also seeing R. And I'm wandering just around by the main reception an lo and fucking behold there stands S!!!!! I had seen R about 3 seconds ago and now I see S there!!!! He was meant to be IN FUCKING WALES for Fry's sake!! No-one really knows about the R-S situ apart from Yashee and Ashley, and with Ashley at a different college I desperately try to track down Yash whilst shaking and shredding my lip to pieces. By the time I find him I'm totally freaking out and even my breathing was shaking, I don't know why I reacted like that, I wouldn't normally but I just bolted. Me and Yash barely talk anymore, literally a couple of words every couple of weeks tops. So even me hunting him down was a risk in it's self but that wasn't important. He must know me well or just have good reactions coz he managed to sort me out as I thought only Ashley knew how. And after an epic-hug and a while chillin' on the grass with some other people I re-entered the 'risk-zone' of lessons. I kept seeing both S and R through-out the day, but neither were anywhere near close enough to say anything, even if they wanted to.
My lip still hurts.
Also, J-R seemed to latch onto me today, he even kissed the top of my head!! I ducked and ran.

For a first day at college, I think that was a pretty damn fucked one, I haven't written this well because I have yet to process it all, I may re-write some time.

Grazie to Yash for putting aside awkward-ness to be a good friend, and to Ashley for being forever awesome, I'd forgotten how much you mean to me.