He told me he loves me today.

There's something wrong with me, because I told him he didn't. I'm always like that because the only people who have ever told me they love me were horny teenage boys, or people who just loved the idea of me.

I don't know what to do with this.

So you're falling apart.
I'm watching over you, but I don't know how to help you.

Fucking... *RAGEFACE*

It's so fucking annoying. I love my mum, I always will, but OMG! So like, I took a diploma, but I haven't got ANY work back, and I haven't got my results either, but my mum is like, Stop getting stroppy! I'm sure they're doing their best.
WHATEVER!
1. I was not getting stroppy, I have every reason to be pissed off, They've had what since may to mark the work and give me my results but NO they can't do that! It's not like 6 months is enough to do that, oh god no! A 'technical error' FUCK THAT! I have been emailing around and oh no fucking fuck fuck!!!
2. DOING THEIR BEST?!?! Whatever, they couldn't give a fuck!! If they were doing their best, I would have my results by now. They would overcome the 'technical error' EASY!

So basically things that are pissing me off:
Not getting my results
Not getting my coursework
My mum not believing me when I'm telling the truth.
Everyone being overly sensitive.

I'M STILL PISSED OFF!

Yoshi.

When one is happy, the other is sad.

No one understands, they really don't, but maybe it would ease it a little to talk? Sit your mum down with a cup of tea, or call up your best friend? I know you don't think we're close, but out of everyone I know at the moment, you're right up there: people I care about. You'd never guess it, but you are, I mean like with my 'sister' and everything!
I don't like seeing you like this. You used to be much more muchier, now you seem like the little balloon you find behind the sofa 5 months after the last birthday. When I say 'where have you gone', that's what I mean. Your body might be here, but where are YOU? I miss you.

Blue Suns - I Saw You

Things I Love at the Moment

• Being with SexyGeorge.
  Because I can be me and he is like, 'you are awesomes!'
• Getting injured.
  Because they're from epic times, like being a cat and LIPping... And George.
• Yashee ummm... performing!
  Everyone else: lalala playplayplay Woo! This is crackin'!
  Yash: FUCK YEH!!! XD XD XD *dances around snazzily* ... *PING*
• Having girl-friends.
  I find it hard to make girl-friends. These are girls, and the appear not to hate me. Me = XD

I don't want to be normal; I don't want to be like you.

I've been realising in the last few days that there are some people who actually fine with just not knowing things. They are perfectly OK with just going about in their little world, only concerned with their immediate surroundings, no desire to explore their mind and the world. How can you live like that?!

How do you not have that thirst to just Go and Do?!

I want to go out there and feel life, feel what it's all like. Feel the grains in the wood, the heat from the crowd, how cold your hands get when you cartwheel in the snow. Have the unbearable burns of chilli, grazes on my knees from running through the streets chasing you with smiles on our faces. I want to take my love with me, show him everything I found with you. I'd travel with you, just not only you. You're amazing. I miss you.