I am afraid to die. You wouldn't think that this is good news, but strangely enough it is. It used to be the thing that terrified me above everything else. But then there came a time when I lost everything and I lost the very core of my being. I welcomed death, thinking it would bring me peace. Then I lost more and it seemed as if there was a compelling force. What good was there left? But then you sit there and you think, and one day it comes to you that you can't will it to happen any more. I have something to loose again now, and something to be lost. And I am afraid again of that all consuming darkness, yet not quite so afraid, to see friends again is a simple delight that will become us all. Fear is just a feeling, fear can never hurt you.